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It sucks. Finally at 30 years old and smoking since a young teen, I started to have alot of mental health issues and have noticed just how much its affected my life and led me to severe depression and other drug use from impaired decision making. Although I was a very heavy user. I'm starting my sober journey now after being addicted to methanphetamine for the past 5 months and still holding a job and being somewhat successful but nothing really matters alot to you when you are high all the time. I felt like I was watching myself live through a clouded dull state of emotion. Just hope my brain can heal to how it"s suppose to be naturally and i find joy from things again.
Does this also include THC gummies? I have ADHD and massive anxiety from time to time. Gummies help a LOT. Dopamine seems gone now…. Wonder if the gummy is causing the lack of it? I take one a night… The thought of doing something that usually gives me joy…makes my gut sour. I can not find joy now
I can't understand words (sung) in a song. When on THC, I can get every word perfect. THC helps me sleep, drive calmer, be more patient & helps me relax. It shuts my "motor" off. Mom had a hard time sitting and resting. During a film, she constantly found reasons to get up and do chores. I space out when watching TV, daydreaming quite a bit. I have a lot of incomplete projects. Lamotrigine helps with the Anxiety to a limited point. I also have Bipolar. What a MIX. I no longer (try to) date ladies. I keep myself out of society.
Weed will lie to you like your ex. Ooooh cmere I feel really great …. HA gotcha sucker now get sick and paranoid and I’ll take all that motivation thank you and you didn’t need that job anyway lol.
Strange, cannabis never worked for me as calming down substance. It always forced me to do something creative and get the flow state of mind. I finished my master degree using cannabis all that period. After many years of using I quit my relation with cannabis. I felt much better but Year after year I started to self medicate with alcohol, not mention about coffeine. Now I am struggling to quit with booze. I blame myself all the time since I was 14. Now I am 44 and I still don't know how to manage my adhd brain. I have work, money, family but I feel I can't expand with my potential, I make so many mistakes in my everyday life… I think I will try with aderal, concentra or other medication. I just have enough of myself… Sorry for my poor English. Greetings from Poland
I’m gonna try quitting from today on, I’m 16 and I’ve been hitting weed carts every night to sleep for the past 2-3 months. Not worth the negative side effects 😭 I’ll miss it though
I don't smoke weed. It's just terrible for me mentally. I take my plant through oils and tinctures. Daily, I take a 50/50 THC/CBD MCT oil, Ive been able to cut my dosage of medication in half and my alcohol consumption by 70%. If this is a crutch, I accept it til further notice, I've been able to achieve so much this year because I stared using cannabis again.
Treating ADHD? What? ADHD cannot be treated. Symptoms can… but you can not sit there and tell me smoking weed is worse for someone with ADHD than a regimen of pharmaceutical drugs. You act as if many of us have not tried "everything." Also, marijuana is NOTHING like nicotine. EVERYONE knows that. And NO… MOST of us who smoke marijuana for treatment don't smoke flower, or cigarettes… we vape. This is a super old fashioned way of thinking… and I am 44.
Is there a study about mixing nicotine (tobacco) and cannabis? Ive been smoking weed for a long time and ive found that when i mix it with tobacco i feel way sharper. My adhd is less present and i can think more clearly. Is there anything out there that could explain this?
That guy has to be self medicating himself. Look at how many times he blinked and how fast he talks and processes information. Just doesn’t seem normal at all
Consumed cannabis daily for 10 years and had a small problem with motivation. Been sober for 2 years and its never been worse. Although I am much more emotionally stable getting myself to do unwanted tasks has never been more painful.
I’m a person with ADHD and when I smoke weed my brain develops much smart really high in the long term less than a 1200. Just being on 1200 high I have been paranoid a couple times and had an anxiety attack once as well too. Do I still like it yes. I think because ADHD has a effect on our mental health is that weed stretches our feelings to the side but I also play the game and listen to music and it’s like my memory sometimes enhanced or remembered or forgotten not if it’s long term or short but it all depends how much THC u take in but my memory, reaction time, patience , brain and vision, and feelings are developed in all positive ways are enhanced and my reaction time and patience is also enhanced when I play call of duty and my brain thinks smarter as a play comp cod player it helps memorize off the top of my dome and perform better. My energy is enhanced too. Depression thoughts may occur but that’s what it’s like used for. Lm plus other things with symptoms or syndromes. It’s to get away or feel a certain strong feeling for a short or long term hour to enjoy life.
This what I found with myself, currently in the process of of being diagnosed, I’ve always known I’ve had it, as a girl even though I showed all the signs and struggles never got diagnosed. I’m 21 now and have in my recent life started smoking. I find that if I have in moderation it really helps me, and even when I’m doing university and creative subjects really helps me study and focus but I’m aware the long term effects and I don’t want to get like that. But its a shame cause I really enjoy it. But when I stop after having it for while I get really board and depressed and want to smoke to feel like myself and happy again. This sounds bad, the short term now, I feel like I can focus and be productive, I become create and gets ideas writing my essays. Sooths my anxiety aswell. Is this odd? I only have little bits to help me relax I also smoke and couldn’t quit because I couldn’t focus at all and my life fell apart.
Are there any studies with adult adhd people over 30 who don't used cannabis and then use it as a treatment? Usually adhd treatments have whose effects like reduced focus, iq and so on for 'normal' people as well as cannabis. But for adhd they work diametral to increase whose things. I started cannabis at early 30s and for me it works really well in really low doses with little side effects. Yeah for high doses it puts you in the couch as well, but in lower doses I function really well. Especially for bore work, which I really suffer from. You cannot compare normal people to adhd people. And knowledge from studies with a mix of people may not apply to especially for the adhd adult group. Also for people with a past of abussing use of cannabis in their early years this may not apply well, cause you're right, it may have a huge long term impact of your brain development.
Im 42 and been using THC at a daily basis since age 16 to try to stay calm and in check as I have severe ADHD, born by an heroin addict that never cared for me was a probable cause along with many different homes. Now my life is cluttered with a mountain of problems that allowed to stack up cause my inability to follow through projects or just paying bills in time and all sorts of avoiding behaviour through imperative periods in adulthood. It feels like Im a 20 year old still fighting teenage angst but with double the life experience of people around me. Ive lived a very fast life , never contemplating consequences more than an hour before rushing on to the next hurdle. I call my dilemma a dragonfly complex, everyday is a new day ,born again but my mind is tired and erratic, the catalogue is basically not in order so starting every day on refresh mode but the memory cache is clustered together in an incohesive manner. Memories are bashed together and I cant pinpoint what happened even the day before cause it seems a lifetime away, and distant memories are poppin up within the close day memories…Its made me a very introvert person cause I cant trust my own mind to make a logic conclusion of whats true or what is a dreamlike scenario of times past. Now Im beginning a journey of great despair and fear and finally quitting cause my life is a mess and I have 2 kids that Ive failed thus far and finally got so angry at myself that I dont even fear the depression that will eventually kick in as I realise the road is long, dark and utterly difficult but just to feel anger like this has been truly missed, as emotions have been dampened by the THC. I know I will need help doing this but refuse a chemical option as from previos experiences showed that Im very reckless with amphetamines/ritaline and antidepressants is a trap for me as I turn to my worst enemy alchohol when dopamine levels drop. Combine that with a high testosterone and disagreeable persona its bound to end in total misery. I feel like I lived a life that wasnt meant for me, in my head I was always a rockstar and not a responsible parent, Im a brilliant mind locked in a prison of responsibilities that never suited me, but reality is that this is my life now and I have kids depending on my ability to safeguard them. That is the only motivation I need but I fear the day when the results dont show I will have to stay vigilant and not succumb to the wet blanket that is THC. Its helped me alot there is no doubt, but its also made me weak and hesitant and its about time I actually performed to my ADHD ability ,let it loose,rip and tear anything is better than this chokehold. Maybe I should write a book with this loooong outlay as proof but yeah, there is a lot untapped potential within and its time to open the lid and maybe one day im not a dragonfly , just a happy and proud father that did everything he could to manage a difficult life.
I have a smoking weed since the 5th grade. Yes over the years I cut back tremendously. I'm now 40 and and recently got diagnosed with autism ADHD and dyslexia.
Really I have autism and the ADHD and dyslexia are symptoms / side effects that come with autism.
I still smoke but I smoke only two to three hits of a joint a day and that's it. I no longer smoke to get high I smoke to even my brain out if that makes sense.
When you have autism your brain is all over the place You're almost not in touch with reality of what's going on around you with normal people. It's like they see the world one way and an event that happened one way but you see a completely different way. You don't feel the same way as other people feel we have autism when it comes to emotions sympathy empathy and things like that.
I have to keep smoking because honestly I don't like the person I am when I don't. Really what I mean is I don't like autism because that's who I am I'm autistic person and I accepted that.
Smoking is the only thing that makes me feel normal that slows my brain down enough so I can function with my family and kids and be loving caring thoughtful considerate emotionally available.
Without smoking weed I'm an ass hole, really I show sounds autism that looks like I'm an ass hole. But when I smoke I don't even really feel high I just feel like everything makes sense.
I made my mind up I'll never stop regardless of the consequences. I can't live another 40 years being a ass to my family being emotionally blocked off living with all the traits and disadvantages of being autistic and haven't ADHD.
I'd rather live now and have a decent quality of life that is filled with love consideration thoughtfulness for the next 40 years.
Whatever the consequences are I'll deal with them when they come it'll probably hit me hard when I get older but at least I will lift my younger years and a better state with the people that matter
The doctor's THC figures he quoted were far too low. Personally I've been self medicating for 34 years and getting a prescription for 2 months. It definitely helps with focus, sleep and appetite.
I've had Severe ADHD all my life and I'm 19, I never went and got medicated for it. So obviously I found my own fixes with Caffeine & THC, It's all about self-control and moderation. I've had my downs with constantly relying on weed all throughout the day, but once I slowed down and substituted the start of my day with coffee and only moderately smoking at the end of the day before I hit the bed works perfectly. The reason that medications like Ritalin/Adderall scare me is that yes, there are people who say it's a godsend thing that magically fixes symptoms of ADHD and it is true in the moment, but the long-term truth about it is that u cannot get off of it once u build a tolerance or you will not be able to function properly whatsoever and become completely depressed without the medication. I've learned that u have to come to acceptance with Ur ADHD and not completely become dependent on weed to function but be able to use that as a reward or comfort blanket. When it comes to stimulants like Adderall, it leaves you no choice of a constant 10 – 12 hour stimulated brain from morning to night and once u get used to it, that's all you know & I've heard too much hell stories of people who depended on Adderall and no longer could get access to it and they lost their jobs and themselves. Its jus not worth it knowing that once ur on a medication like Adderall, ur life basically revolves and depends on a prescribed amphetamine that u will one day grow too much of a tolerance to.
I'm contraindicated for the antispasmodic medication usually used to treat my primary disability. Can't take benzodiazepines because I'll somehow decide under their influence that killing myself is a good idea. Can't take baclofen because it's destroying my liver. I have positive results when I'm given morphine or other opiates for acute trauma but it's not suitable as a long term medication. That leaves cannabinols, THC, CBN and CBD. My secondary disability is ADD. Diagnosed age 5, untreated for the 45 years. You could fix the ADD tomorrow an I'd still be a freak and a reject who'll never get a job or have a family, so who the hell cares if I've found a drug that makes me happy once in a damn while? get off my case. Doctors like you never helped before, and now you're telling me to stop the only thing that's ever helped me. Because of your puritanical objections. Good on you, sir. I'm not going to waste my time watching your whole diatribe, but let me know if I'm wrong and at some point you do actually point out different drugs effect different people in different ways.
Pretty sure your oath was not "First do more harm if you think that's what jesus would want just because you don't like the only medication that would help."
This is a brave thing to say nowadays. I wish I would’ve never touched it, but here I am at 27 and I just bought weed again out of impulse and boredom after I threw my weed away two days ago!! I need to figure this stuff out. I gotta quit this shit ain’t good for me. I only think straight like this after I’ve smoked.
It sucks. Finally at 30 years old and smoking since a young teen, I started to have alot of mental health issues and have noticed just how much its affected my life and led me to severe depression and other drug use from impaired decision making. Although I was a very heavy user. I'm starting my sober journey now after being addicted to methanphetamine for the past 5 months and still holding a job and being somewhat successful but nothing really matters alot to you when you are high all the time. I felt like I was watching myself live through a clouded dull state of emotion. Just hope my brain can heal to how it"s suppose to be naturally and i find joy from things again.
Does this also include THC gummies? I have ADHD and massive anxiety from time to time. Gummies help a LOT. Dopamine seems gone now…. Wonder if the gummy is causing the lack of it? I take one a night… The thought of doing something that usually gives me joy…makes my gut sour. I can not find joy now
Weed is the only thing that calms my adhd and makes external stimuli that overwhelms me calm down
Just a question.. aren't all those negative long term effects of cannabis also the long term negative effects for ritalin or adderall? Thank you.
I can't understand words (sung) in a song. When on THC, I can get every word perfect. THC helps me sleep, drive calmer, be more patient & helps me relax. It shuts my "motor" off. Mom had a hard time sitting and resting. During a film, she constantly found reasons to get up and do chores. I space out when watching TV, daydreaming quite a bit. I have a lot of incomplete projects. Lamotrigine helps with the Anxiety to a limited point. I also have Bipolar. What a MIX. I no longer (try to) date ladies. I keep myself out of society.
iam phd too …and ian a ADHDer and i tried THC for my ADHD for 20 year
and this is my take .. Its Working
under one condition:
you use the smallest amount the relive the symptoms
dont chase the high …just get your focus with the tiniest amount
just as we are using the amphetamine and the other drug
its way more healthier than the drugs
dont chase the High …its your medicine not you entertainment
you need it to stay effective at the lowest
I use cannabis high in CBD and can attest that it has radically helped me with both OCD and ADHD symptoms.
Weed will lie to you like your ex. Ooooh cmere I feel really great …. HA gotcha sucker now get sick and paranoid and I’ll take all that motivation thank you and you didn’t need that job anyway lol.
Strange, cannabis never worked for me as calming down substance. It always forced me to do something creative and get the flow state of mind. I finished my master degree using cannabis all that period. After many years of using I quit my relation with cannabis. I felt much better but Year after year I started to self medicate with alcohol, not mention about coffeine. Now I am struggling to quit with booze. I blame myself all the time since I was 14. Now I am 44 and I still don't know how to manage my adhd brain. I have work, money, family but I feel I can't expand with my potential, I make so many mistakes in my everyday life… I think I will try with aderal, concentra or other medication. I just have enough of myself… Sorry for my poor English. Greetings from Poland
I’m gonna try quitting from today on, I’m 16 and I’ve been hitting weed carts every night to sleep for the past 2-3 months. Not worth the negative side effects 😭 I’ll miss it though
I don't smoke weed. It's just terrible for me mentally. I take my plant through oils and tinctures. Daily, I take a 50/50 THC/CBD MCT oil, Ive been able to cut my dosage of medication in half and my alcohol consumption by 70%. If this is a crutch, I accept it til further notice, I've been able to achieve so much this year because I stared using cannabis again.
Treating ADHD? What? ADHD cannot be treated. Symptoms can… but you can not sit there and tell me smoking weed is worse for someone with ADHD than a regimen of pharmaceutical drugs. You act as if many of us have not tried "everything." Also, marijuana is NOTHING like nicotine. EVERYONE knows that. And NO… MOST of us who smoke marijuana for treatment don't smoke flower, or cigarettes… we vape. This is a super old fashioned way of thinking… and I am 44.
Is there a study about mixing nicotine (tobacco) and cannabis? Ive been smoking weed for a long time and ive found that when i mix it with tobacco i feel way sharper. My adhd is less present and i can think more clearly. Is there anything out there that could explain this?
How different are the cascading effects from stimulants used to manage symptoms?
Whats worse, cannabis or pills for adhd treatment?
What is the effect of thc consumed via eating it raw as compared to smoking it in thc-a form?
U blink a lot
That guy has to be self medicating himself. Look at how many times he blinked and how fast he talks and processes information. Just doesn’t seem normal at all
u dont know what u talkiny about
Wow what about the medication you given out and the addiction to your medication….
Consumed cannabis daily for 10 years and had a small problem with motivation. Been sober for 2 years and its never been worse. Although I am much more emotionally stable getting myself to do unwanted tasks has never been more painful.
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I’m a person with ADHD and when I smoke weed my brain develops much smart really high in the long term less than a 1200. Just being on 1200 high I have been paranoid a couple times and had an anxiety attack once as well too. Do I still like it yes. I think because ADHD has a effect on our mental health is that weed stretches our feelings to the side but I also play the game and listen to music and it’s like my memory sometimes enhanced or remembered or forgotten not if it’s long term or short but it all depends how much THC u take in but my memory, reaction time, patience , brain and vision, and feelings are developed in all positive ways are enhanced and my reaction time and patience is also enhanced when I play call of duty and my brain thinks smarter as a play comp cod player it helps memorize off the top of my dome and perform better. My energy is enhanced too. Depression thoughts may occur but that’s what it’s like used for. Lm plus other things with symptoms or syndromes. It’s to get away or feel a certain strong feeling for a short or long term hour to enjoy life.
This what I found with myself, currently in the process of of being diagnosed, I’ve always known I’ve had it, as a girl even though I showed all the signs and struggles never got diagnosed. I’m 21 now and have in my recent life started smoking. I find that if I have in moderation it really helps me, and even when I’m doing university and creative subjects really helps me study and focus but I’m aware the long term effects and I don’t want to get like that. But its a shame cause I really enjoy it. But when I stop after having it for while I get really board and depressed and want to smoke to feel like myself and happy again. This sounds bad, the short term now, I feel like I can focus and be productive, I become create and gets ideas writing my essays. Sooths my anxiety aswell. Is this odd? I only have little bits to help me relax I also smoke and couldn’t quit because I couldn’t focus at all and my life fell apart.
Are there any studies with adult adhd people over 30 who don't used cannabis and then use it as a treatment? Usually adhd treatments have whose effects like reduced focus, iq and so on for 'normal' people as well as cannabis. But for adhd they work diametral to increase whose things. I started cannabis at early 30s and for me it works really well in really low doses with little side effects. Yeah for high doses it puts you in the couch as well, but in lower doses I function really well. Especially for bore work, which I really suffer from. You cannot compare normal people to adhd people. And knowledge from studies with a mix of people may not apply to especially for the adhd adult group. Also for people with a past of abussing use of cannabis in their early years this may not apply well, cause you're right, it may have a huge long term impact of your brain development.
I’m quitting! No good for me just every now n then.
Im 42 and been using THC at a daily basis since age 16 to try to stay calm and in check as I have severe ADHD, born by an heroin addict that never cared for me was a probable cause along with many different homes. Now my life is cluttered with a mountain of problems that allowed to stack up cause my inability to follow through projects or just paying bills in time and all sorts of avoiding behaviour through imperative periods in adulthood. It feels like Im a 20 year old still fighting teenage angst but with double the life experience of people around me. Ive lived a very fast life , never contemplating consequences more than an hour before rushing on to the next hurdle. I call my dilemma a dragonfly complex, everyday is a new day ,born again but my mind is tired and erratic, the catalogue is basically not in order so starting every day on refresh mode but the memory cache is clustered together in an incohesive manner. Memories are bashed together and I cant pinpoint what happened even the day before cause it seems a lifetime away, and distant memories are poppin up within the close day memories…Its made me a very introvert person cause I cant trust my own mind to make a logic conclusion of whats true or what is a dreamlike scenario of times past. Now Im beginning a journey of great despair and fear and finally quitting cause my life is a mess and I have 2 kids that Ive failed thus far and finally got so angry at myself that I dont even fear the depression that will eventually kick in as I realise the road is long, dark and utterly difficult but just to feel anger like this has been truly missed, as emotions have been dampened by the THC. I know I will need help doing this but refuse a chemical option as from previos experiences showed that Im very reckless with amphetamines/ritaline and antidepressants is a trap for me as I turn to my worst enemy alchohol when dopamine levels drop. Combine that with a high testosterone and disagreeable persona its bound to end in total misery. I feel like I lived a life that wasnt meant for me, in my head I was always a rockstar and not a responsible parent, Im a brilliant mind locked in a prison of responsibilities that never suited me, but reality is that this is my life now and I have kids depending on my ability to safeguard them. That is the only motivation I need but I fear the day when the results dont show I will have to stay vigilant and not succumb to the wet blanket that is THC. Its helped me alot there is no doubt, but its also made me weak and hesitant and its about time I actually performed to my ADHD ability ,let it loose,rip and tear anything is better than this chokehold. Maybe I should write a book with this loooong outlay as proof but yeah, there is a lot untapped potential within and its time to open the lid and maybe one day im not a dragonfly , just a happy and proud father that did everything he could to manage a difficult life.
I have a smoking weed since the 5th grade. Yes over the years I cut back tremendously. I'm now 40 and and recently got diagnosed with autism ADHD and dyslexia.
Really I have autism and the ADHD and dyslexia are symptoms / side effects that come with autism.
I still smoke but I smoke only two to three hits of a joint a day and that's it. I no longer smoke to get high I smoke to even my brain out if that makes sense.
When you have autism your brain is all over the place You're almost not in touch with reality of what's going on around you with normal people. It's like they see the world one way and an event that happened one way but you see a completely different way. You don't feel the same way as other people feel we have autism when it comes to emotions sympathy empathy and things like that.
I have to keep smoking because honestly I don't like the person I am when I don't. Really what I mean is I don't like autism because that's who I am I'm autistic person and I accepted that.
Smoking is the only thing that makes me feel normal that slows my brain down enough so I can function with my family and kids and be loving caring thoughtful considerate emotionally available.
Without smoking weed I'm an ass hole, really I show sounds autism that looks like I'm an ass hole. But when I smoke I don't even really feel high I just feel like everything makes sense.
I made my mind up I'll never stop regardless of the consequences. I can't live another 40 years being a ass to my family being emotionally blocked off living with all the traits and disadvantages of being autistic and haven't ADHD.
I'd rather live now and have a decent quality of life that is filled with love consideration thoughtfulness for the next 40 years.
Whatever the consequences are I'll deal with them when they come it'll probably hit me hard when I get older but at least I will lift my younger years and a better state with the people that matter
The doctor's THC figures he quoted were far too low. Personally I've been self medicating for 34 years and getting a prescription for 2 months. It definitely helps with focus, sleep and appetite.
weed gives you all the knowledge but you can only put it into practice sober
Best strain of weed for adhd? Sativa or indica? Anyone ?
I've had Severe ADHD all my life and I'm 19, I never went and got medicated for it. So obviously I found my own fixes with Caffeine & THC, It's all about self-control and moderation. I've had my downs with constantly relying on weed all throughout the day, but once I slowed down and substituted the start of my day with coffee and only moderately smoking at the end of the day before I hit the bed works perfectly. The reason that medications like Ritalin/Adderall scare me is that yes, there are people who say it's a godsend thing that magically fixes symptoms of ADHD and it is true in the moment, but the long-term truth about it is that u cannot get off of it once u build a tolerance or you will not be able to function properly whatsoever and become completely depressed without the medication. I've learned that u have to come to acceptance with Ur ADHD and not completely become dependent on weed to function but be able to use that as a reward or comfort blanket. When it comes to stimulants like Adderall, it leaves you no choice of a constant 10 – 12 hour stimulated brain from morning to night and once u get used to it, that's all you know & I've heard too much hell stories of people who depended on Adderall and no longer could get access to it and they lost their jobs and themselves. Its jus not worth it knowing that once ur on a medication like Adderall, ur life basically revolves and depends on a prescribed amphetamine that u will one day grow too much of a tolerance to.
I'm contraindicated for the antispasmodic medication usually used to treat my primary disability. Can't take benzodiazepines because I'll somehow decide under their influence that killing myself is a good idea. Can't take baclofen because it's destroying my liver. I have positive results when I'm given morphine or other opiates for acute trauma but it's not suitable as a long term medication. That leaves cannabinols, THC, CBN and CBD.
My secondary disability is ADD. Diagnosed age 5, untreated for the 45 years. You could fix the ADD tomorrow an I'd still be a freak and a reject who'll never get a job or have a family, so who the hell cares if I've found a drug that makes me happy once in a damn while? get off my case. Doctors like you never helped before, and now you're telling me to stop the only thing that's ever helped me. Because of your puritanical objections. Good on you, sir. I'm not going to waste my time watching your whole diatribe, but let me know if I'm wrong and at some point you do actually point out different drugs effect different people in different ways.
Pretty sure your oath was not "First do more harm if you think that's what jesus would want just because you don't like the only medication that would help."
This is a brave thing to say nowadays. I wish I would’ve never touched it, but here I am at 27 and I just bought weed again out of impulse and boredom after I threw my weed away two days ago!! I need to figure this stuff out. I gotta quit this shit ain’t good for me. I only think straight like this after I’ve smoked.
Shit